August has always been a busy month in this household.
In our immediate family we have 4 birthdays and The Craftsman and I celebrate our anniversary. Add in all the back to school busy-ness and there's little time to slack off. This year we've also had one wedding shower, a baby shower, and good friends coming to visit for a couple of days. And all of that is on top of housecleaning, cooking and summer yard work.
I've had the added pleasure of celebrating good news, in the guise of several friends learning they are a Maggie finalist.
In the meantime, I've come down -- sort of -- from the high of having sold my first book and have faced the dark tunnel of producing another book.
This should not be a problem. After all, I didn't sell the first book I wrote. I've written many others so this should be a simple matter of coming up with new characters and ways to make their lives conflicted and difficult before they enjoy that happily-ever-after moment.
However it feels different this time.
I admit the fear kept me paralyzed for a few days. But like most fears, if voiced aloud, it loses much of the power it held over you. I won't go so far as to say I've conquered the fear. I can even rationalize and say I believe the fear will help me stay on task. In my opinion, the fear rarely, if ever, goes away in the life of a writer.
I have also, this month at least, given myself permission to enjoy the blessings of my life and family. I work on the new manuscript, or try to, every day. Granted some of that work is not putting actual words on the screen but could be little more than mulling. Eventually that mulling will pay off.
For now, however, the laundry awaits.